Today I was feeling better than I had in a few weeks. I saw the physiotherapist yesterday and as always I felt so much better after our consultation. She has this wonderful skill of normalising what my body is doing without dismissing my concern. Not only this she is thoroughly conversant with CRPS and it inherent difficulties. One of my concerns which I discussed with her yesterday was my difficulty in walking and the resultant pain. We worked through a range of activities and she looked at the way in which I sat and stood. my technique is causing pain other than CRPS in my body. I think the CRPS causes me to sit and stand and walk like this. I think I am particularly protective of my limbs and this results in causing further damage.
I have a range of activities to do and I have an appointment to see her in two weeks. We did spend some time discussing creative processes after I had given her a copy of my blog about feeling cheated. There was a challenged issued that I perhaps try and draw how I see the pain. I of course do not have any talent in this regard but accept the challenge I did. Very clever of her to make it a challenge.
I had a lovely afternoon sitting in the sun in the garden with my friend L. this afternoon. As always we had a good laugh about several things. We rang an old friend in Melbourne and the beginning of the call was almost bordering on hilarious. She did not know who it was that was calling her or who she was speaking to and she had quite a funny conversation before she was able to work it out. It was joyous to speak with her and listen to her wisdom. One of the things she said that resonated with me was don’t put a full stop where God has only put a comma. I guess there are times when I do put the full stop in when I am feeling particularly sorry for myself but I always seems to remember that life will go on. She also said God sometimes moves mountains but he does not always put them where we would like them. Wise words from a very wise woman
At around 5.00 pm the pain began to escalate once again. My feet and legs and my left arm are just on fire. One of the characteristics of CRPS is its unpredictable nature. As I write this the pain is up around 8/10 so it is not auguring well for a restful night.